Slipping away

So time is slipping away!

The year will be over in 2.75 more days! The Derby holiday party will be here soon, then.... THEN... it's wedding time. CRAP. did i just say that? think that? feel that? 16 days or so away and dunn dunn dunn.

Not really dunn dunn dunn b/c i'm excited i always feel stupid saying that b/c we have been dating and living together long enough that it's like we are married. BUT whatever. i'm excited b/c we are having a ceremony and celebration on our terms and his father was kind enough to pay for it all. it helped us not have to worry about money not that we are spending some insane amount b/c we are not. Just that every little bit of help goes a long way.

I am so happy to be marrying my honey face. it's cheesy and it's just a piece of paper / way for the government to control us more but it's also neat and exciting. this is the part where i turn into a girly puddle of pink and glitter and all things pretty. LOL or where i am just so happy i could squeeze a chubby baby's cheeks.

In other news i hope to post some pictures here soon. I want to show off a super awesome Christmas gift & the forever blanket #3. And maybe other random things. but that requires after hours effort... damn.

have a wonderful day.

Christmas... aftermath

Christmas was fun! filled with lots of places to go and faces to see. BUT it was tons of fun and everyone seemed to like the gifts i gave so that is always extra super fun! And i got lots of awesome gifts as well!

Now it's back to work... well with the exception of coming in late this AM due to all the snow. FYI my tiny Honda civic + snow + wind = a slipper slide to work. Regardless of what you think... certain person with your SUV. plus it's super fun when parts of everywhere you are driving are plowed and parts of it are not... good times.

Thank goodness for delivery places for lunch.

Christmas parties and such

So last night was my honey face's work party. He works with a batch of interesting people... I over heard and heard lots of strange things. Over all it was an ok time b/c i started out so nauseated i felt like i could vomit at any moment then the motion sickness meds kicked in and i turned into a zombie. One thing they did that was awesome was hot chocolate with chocolate shavings and heavy whipped cream! YUM to the max! I only had one cup b/c apparently when i'm a zombie i have self control. Go ZOMBIE ME!

We had to depart earlier then some (people were going out after to continue the party... cough drinking...) because i had to work the next day (today) look at me working...

Well i'm going to do the obligatory thing now and wish all who read and even those who don't a VERY MERRY SUPER HAPPY FLUFFY PILLOW TIME CHRISTMAS! (AND OTHER HOLIDAYS PEOPLE CELEBRATE)

but let me leave you with a list of questions Dan's co-workers asked me:

"Are you going to eat this year?" (Um yeah just like every other year 3 years running now... am i missing something?)

"You didn't like the ballet X?" (Thanks honey for ratting me out on that one FYI the polite thing to do is just tell someone WE enjoyed it...)

"Do you celebrate Christmas?" me: "Yes..." them "OH OK Well Merry Christmas." (enough said...)

and my all time favorite:
"Where are you two going to live once you get married?" Several people asked this... hey people i hate to brake it to you but we have been living as WE for almost 5 1/2 years now... yeah what can i say we are big giant SINNERS.

The end.

Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

I love me. LOL ok fine...

Dear Awesome ME,

You are awesome b/c you try hard to over come your fears and still have fun. You try to help people when you can with what you can. You try to do things the way you want them instead of the way others think it should be (cough your wedding). And you do your best not to take any ones crap (unless they sign your paycheck... damn). You have a great fiance, family, & group of friends... so you must be doing something right. OH and your a bad ass derby chick.

Love sometimes but not always,
Awesome Me

Now that's the end of that... does this mean i have to start posting real posts again? :O)

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Well i hope to change my spending habits so that i can save some money so i don't have to live pay check to pay check. that seems like a pretty simple task.... BUT i like STUFF! no wait i LOVE STUFF! bahahaha so it's just a little tiny bit harder then you imagine. BUT i will prevail i tell you! i must! my bank account can't handle me failing.

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Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

I would keep the little devil and raise it as my own... well yeah it would be my own so i guess i should raise it as my own. I would then proceed to get fixed so that it would not happen again. Just saying... while children can be cute and can add to your life... they can also be evil and take years away from you that you will never get back ever! Turn your hair grey and steal your teeth... eat away at your sanity and make you wish you never knew how to make them in the 1st place. But like i said sometimes they can be cute. And besides my kid would totally be cute... if not at least 90% evil (it's called payback people and BOY do i have that coming if i ever have a spawn i mean kid).

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Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Duh... Me. LOL just kidding. Well I could say my honey face, my mom, derby... some would say my job b/c hey i have one and i got promoted. I could say my family & friends in general. Basically i have TONS of "Best" things going for me right now. I'm at a high point in my life... so don't ask me this question when i'm in a low point... ok? OK!

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Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Not so much... b/c if you refer to yesterday my mom always made sure i knew that no matter what (even with my attitude and shit way i treated her at times) she loved me! She loved me and to me that meant i couldn't just give up or end things b/c i owed it to her to keep on keeping on! Plus i had a healthy fear of hell. just saying.

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Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

My mother. Simple I know but A. she took care of me from birth to well she still takes care of me in many ways. B. She is the BEST MOM EVER in case i haven't said that in a while. C. look at A & B

Really she has given me confidence when i hardly had a whisper of it. Taught me to take care of myself and be independent. Taught me when and whom to pick my battles with. And made sure that i know that at least one person in this terrible world loves me all the time.


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Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
I don't have the time for this one right now... i'll come back to it another day... lame i know but this one is more complicated then the other ones have been... wouldn't you agree? But i promise i will get back to it one of these days.

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Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.

Well i still have plenty of life to live so i suppose i can still do what it is i wish i had done... If i were to think back to my younger years i wish i would have worn more sunblock, been less boy crazy, been easier on myself, & Treated my mom better! BUT thankfully i still have plenty of time to spoil my mom as much as i can! and i can now be easier on myself... and as for boys & sunblock... well i got a handle on the boy thing & the sunblock thing... never too late... right?

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Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

I wish i hadn't blown all my money when i was younger on bull$hit. BUT who hasn't wished for that? Credit card debt is a b*tch and i think i finally got that b*tch to submit to me! YEAH! it may have taken forever and a day but i think i finally got a handle on that... ask me again in February.

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Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Well since their my "best friend" i'm guessing the fight was petty bullshit that can be gotten over while i'm driving to the hospital. B/c no matter what I try to be there for my friends through thick and thin. It's when they start being ungrateful self destructing a$$holes that i can't stick around and keep going through the same horse droppings with them hoping to turn that into gold. Especially when they accuse me of being a bad friend or person b/c i can't stand to see them repeat the same self destructive behavior over and over again.


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Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.

OK this one is just too simple. My views... i'm straight edge, which means i view them to be not worth my time, energy, or brain cells. Drugs & alcohol have both proven how terribly bad they are for people yet... people somehow think that either the problems are worth it or they are "different." I really could right a 500 page book about my "views" on drugs and alcohol... of course at some point it might just turn into ranting... so i'll stop here by stating again... I'm straight edge and have been so my entire life which yes means i have NEVER drank alcohol or done drugs.

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Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

I think religion is very personal and so are politics. I PERSONALLY believe in one God and that Jesus saved my soul. I PERSONALLY believe that we should be the true free country we claim to be and have less government and more individual responsibility. I hate how everything somehow ends up being a government program or government controlled... where is your freedom in that? INDIVIDUAL RESPONSIBILITY learn it love it live it.

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Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.

Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
My simple answer is this... I am NOT God. therefore i can't judge or point a finger or say what is the end all be all! I am human, I am tolerant, I am NOT GOD. And clearly if i were so great and perfect and had everything right i wouldn't be living in "sin" for the past 5 1/2 years. and let me just say once more I'm NOT GOD.

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Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Hmmmm... well Marlyn Manson's Biography... stick with me here. Though it didn't make me want to be his #1 fan and get his name tattooed on my face, it was a very well written informative book. It showed how he ended up where he is in life. And did i mention how well written it was? b/c it really was. It showed how intelligent he is and how messed up his childhood was. Not saying that gives him an excuse to creep the HELL out of me BUT it sure is a reason for him to end up how he did.

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Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Well this goes back to getting rid of someones (which # was that?) I've gotten rid of the someones i could live without they are not worth my wonderful time! Something i could live without my cell phone. I miss the days of a land line at home and that being the only way for people to get in contact with you. I liked not be reachable and i liked others around me not being reachable... you see cell phones sometimes like to kill moments b/c you can't go to dinner or hang out with out YOU or the other person consistently looking at their phone... did i miss a call/ text/ e-mail?? OMG what is EVERYONE else that isn't here doing / thinking?!!!!! Yes i am guilty of it too. And yes i do appreciate my cell phone so don't get me wrong... it's just that i feel like i could totally live without it.


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Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Lets make this real easy. My mom (the BEST MOM EVER)! Ok while i could live without her sort of i would prefer not to! When i moved to NC and i was not around her i hated it! I hated having a bad day or week and not being able to go see my mom who would dispense hugs and yummy food to make me feel all better. I could still talk to her on the phone and believe me i did! But i missed her hugs so much! So while i could live (as in still have a pulse) without her i don't think i can mentally be well without her!

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Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.

My hero has yet to let me down. She is amazing. She did it all when i was younger, was a mom, dad, nurse, friend, and much much more. She is a constant wonder of a being. She is always there for me no matter what. Always knows how to talk me off the plank and bring me back from the dark abyss that life can sometimes lead you to. She is so much more then a mother that's why she is the BEST MOM EVER! She really truly is.

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Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.

Well that would be... a few of them like Smashing Pumpkins got me through most of my high school years. Where as Blink 182 got me through a tough trip while i was in school. Then there is Our Lady Peace that got me through a crappy summer situation. After school i would say Led Zeppelin and No Doubt got me through tough times. You see where this is going? It's never ending... i love music what can i say...

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Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.

I never get compliments on... well i don't know... people take forever to notice things. Like a new hair cut or if i wear jewelry. But they eventually notice and compliment. Plus i think i get plenty enough compliments so i couldn't tell you what i never get them on.

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Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

People compliment me all the time on my name. And while i didn't give myself my own name it makes me really happy that they do b/c it's a compliment to the best MOM EVER! So when someone is like "what a pretty name!" I'm like YEP! MY MOM did AWESOME! Because hello she so did! After all she is the BEST MOM EVER!!

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Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

I let go of the someones in my life that needed to be let go of. I do tend to hang on to them for far past their expiration date in hopes that the person they once were will return and things will be ok again... BUT it never happens. They usually end up hurting me one final time before i realize i don't have to put up with their BS anymore, that it's ok to let them go.

It always stinks b/c like stated previously i remember everything so of course i remember all the good times we had and the nice things they did for me. BUT then i start remembering all the bad things and i just know that moving on is the right step. I may not like them or want them in my life but i don't wish ill will on them. I always hope they find happiness and peace of mind in this life just not with me around.


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Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Well over the years there have been many people... mostly friends. It's hard to find good friends and when you find ones you believe to be great it really stinks when they just fade into the sleepy dusk. I can think of two right off the top of my head Kelly & Leilani. They were two girls that i was friends with that i wouldn't mind hearing from again. I was lucky to have one friend that i thought was lost forever find me again... so i'm hopeful that someday i'll find the other ones as well. Since this is the age of social media.

Wow this post was so compelling wasn't it... :O)

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Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Oh Lowrdy! I could say there were a whole bunch of someones. BUT when i close my eyes and think of the 1st someone... can i blame my last name? Which i guess is like blaming my "dad." You see... having a Spanish last name = Do you speak Spanish? I can't understand what your saying b/c clearly YOUR SPANISH. Oh... Hello Juarez. Um... yeah that's my LAST name. don't get me started on the names people would call me... I don't think i look that Spanish... maybe in my younger years b/c i was super tan... but not so much now that if a person didn't hear my last name they wouldn't know. BUT my last name is all "HA HA YOUR SPANISH AND CAN'T SPEAK SPANISH TO SAVE YOUR LIFE!!" I think a big part of not being able to find a good job in NC was b/c of my last name. I had a Spanish teacher who basically wanted to hang me at high noon b/c she was pretty certain i could speak Spanish and was hiding it from her. I spent most of that class saying "sentimos." So yeah i'm going with my last name.

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Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.

There are a few someones...
My mom... because lets face it if someone so wonderful gives up their whole being for you... well you better damn well live and live a full life! otherwise you are making what they did go to waste. She gave up having a life so that my sister and i always knew she was there for us day or night!
My sister... duh she is super fun and i always wanted to be her growing up! I wanted to be as smart, pretty, cool, & neat as her always!
Last but not least at all My honey head! He puts up with my crazy, loves me no matter what, & makes things so much more enjoyable. He is the bestest!!

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Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.

There are plenty of things i hope to never have to do... but what is the point of stating any of them? Lets just say when shitty things happen no one ever hoped they would have to do/deal with them. But life deals out some strange cards sometimes. So whatever comes my way i will deal with the best i can even if it wasn't something i wanted to happen.

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Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.

I hope to help as many people as i can... it may not be in a giant way like buying them a house or bringing total world peace. But helping in ways that i can with time and resources that i have available to me.

Also i hope to make sure my mother is always taken care of... ALWAYS. thankfully i also have my sister to help with that. We both realize that our mom deserves to not have to work until she dies and that she will need us and we will be there for her. We already are slowly becoming the parents... it's a strange cycle of life.

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Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.

Forgive someone for...

Well I mostly forgive people it's the forgetting part i never really did grasp...

The only person i have left to forgive... wont ever be forgiven... EVER. It's hard to forgive someone who doesn't even care. It would be my "father" (using the term so loosely it may fall apart at this very moment). No i don't care that he wasn't a father for me because as we all know i have the worlds greatest mom EVER! No his debt to me lies in the form of hurting my mother... and that is all i will say about that.

UN forgiven.

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Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Something i have to forgive me for...

I suppose i could forgive myself for all the stupid credit card debt i let myself get into. Though i'm THIS >< close to being rid of it. It has been a constant weight on my shoulders. I only have myself to blame for it therefore i only have myself to forgive for it.

This one may take a while...

(Stay tuned for...)

Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.

Something i love about me....



Well i wasn't always willing to just go after what i wanted... and sometimes i really have to work up to it... BUT I have gotten so much better at NOT waiting for someone else to do, go, or whatever with me. Example... ROLLER DERBY. I was going to wait and join with a friend. But then her excuses piled up and her time line became more and more bleak. so i said SELF YOU want this RIGHT? RIGHT!! So self your going into this your self! if you get laughed at o'well... if they don't like you then you don't have to return. If it's totally creepy and not something you can handle your a big girl you can just walk away! BUT it was so super awesome! it was worth going alone and being filled with rocks at the pit of my stomach!



Another example is in the dating department. Around the end of my senior year in high school i decided to quit waiting for someone i was interested in to find me... and to just ask them out or to the prom (i asked 3 guys to prom FYI). I said the worst that can happen is they say No thanks. and i move on with my life. So far no one actually said NO thanks... they gave lame excuses but it didn't make for bad friendships because i was able to just let it go and take it for what it was.



So i guess my short story long is i like that i somewhere along the line finally decided to just go after what i want and take a rejection in stride instead of letting it ruin me.

(Stay tuned for...)

Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

Wow 3 post in one day...

Look i'm making a real effort to post more on this here blog. So look at this three posts in one day. wow.

I could talk about the Derby game this past weekend... we lost by 5 points. And while i could sit here and say we were robbed... i'd rather spend my time telling you how much fun i had. How i really do skate with a group of wonderful people. Sure we all have our flaws and we do and say crazy crap from time to time but like any dysfunctional family we have a great time together and that's what matters! My derby family is awesome and i can't wait for another year of AWESOME! (Can you believe it's been a year since i joined Derby?! I can't!!)

This week is Thanksgiving and i am looking forward to my family gathering. My aunt makes a good meal and has a big fuzzy heart. I can't wait to spend time with my mom and sister! i don't know if you know this but i have the most awesome family EVER! (yeah EVER!) My mom is so super awesome i love her so much! and my sister is awesome! how can so much awesome be in one family line you might ask... the answer is because we are AWESOME! LOL

1 month and 2 1/2 weeks and i will be some one's wife! WIFE! I sort of can't wait! I know i know... what's the big deal ... it's like your already married... But is it? It's a big deal to me so that's all that matters right? RIGHT!

I am so close to almost finishing forever blanket #3! AHHHHH once i finish it i think i am going to make a slide show of crocheted items so i can be all... "look what i made! I'm super awesome..." LOL or something like that! I however already have like 2 other forever blankets lined up in my mind. One would be for my super awesome friend Julie who is super awesome! and the other would be for my friend Liz who got married in the summer i just had zero time to make her anything since i'm still working on a blanket from a wedding that happened a year ago! YIKES. there needs to be more hours in the days! (or at least more non-work hours...)

Alright i bored the crap out of you enough! thanks for tuning in!

Bye bye now

Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.

Something i hate about myself...

Well this should be an easy one... i hate the fact that i am super retarded sensitive. My feelings get hurt really easily... it drives my honey face nuts! BUT my feelings only get hurt really easily by people i care about. Screw people that i could give a hoot less about. They can walk the plank or pound sand!

But yes i am sensitive i try and try to not be and to realize when i'm doing it. BUT it's especially hard when you remember EVERYTHING... UGH remembering everything is NOT a good way to be in life... it's not just remembering what someone said or did it's also remembering the way it felt. It's icky and not fun. Sure it also means you remember the great feelings and good times... So ha i guess that makes two things i hate about myself... i should end this post before that list grows to more.

Good times.

(Stay tuned for...)

Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

This is stolen from other bloggers...

30 days of truth:


Day 01 → Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 → Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 → Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 → Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 → Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 → Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 → Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 → Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 → Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 → Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11 → Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 → Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 → A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days.
Day 14 → A hero who has let you down.
Day 15 → Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16 → Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 → A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 → Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 → What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 → Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 → Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 → Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 → A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

The GPS has a deal with bad people

I have mounting evidence that my GPS wants me to:
1. get raped
2. get kidnapped
3. get beaten and left for dead
4. be murdered
5. be robbed
6. ALL of the above or a combo of them

Why would i say such things about the little innocent hunk of technology known as GPS (pronounced GeePees)?

Well all locations or final destinations SOME how = driving through the ghetto. ALL ALL of them = this. Oh you want to go to your moms house? which is the total opposite of the city? You must drive through North East Philly first... But... the city isn't between me and my mom... GPS doesn't care DRIVE THROUGH THE GHETTO NOW!

I want to go to my Derby game in NJ... DRIVE THROUGH North East Philly first... BUT i can just stay on the turnpike until it turns into the NJ turnpike.... NO NO YOU CAN'T you must waste at least an hour sitting in the ghetto traffic on a SATURDAY evening before passing GO.

So why was i surprised last night as we were driving into the city and Honey face poor poor naive honey face wanted to listen to the GPS? He was all like every way is f'd right now so lets follow the GPS. And I'm all well your driving so i guess you can do that. As we pulled onto 5th street... that's about the time the flash back started... to a cool Fall day... when i 1st started having to drive to more places in the city then just south street or the electric factory... I listened to GPS... I pulled onto 5th street... only to sit in traffic for AN HOUR to go 2.8 MILES through the Ghetto! As i watch GPS's time est. go up and up... AN HOUR for 2.8 miles. It all came rushing back last night.

When we left the house we were estimated to arrive at our destination at 6:08. As we drove along that estimate turned into 6:40. Wicked little devil box that GPS is! and it was sure to take us through the most Ghetto parts of philly... also took us through a shopping center YES you read that right!

my conclusion.... GPS = Evil.

This story is true though i wish it wasn't!

Lets tell the tale of being in Philadelphia (Philly for you Philly / Jersey folk) past the time of 2am. In case you don't know.... only BAD things happen past 2am especially in Philly. So it was the annual Jello Wrestling night for Roller Derby and we parked in a lot right next to the club. SCORE for us. We told the guy we would return around 12:30-1am. We walk out at 2am... the one fence to the lot is locked... bad sign. The little hut is dark and empty... terrible sign. There is a note on the windshield "Go to 9th & Race to get your keys we have a 24 hour lot there." Poop.

The players: Hard CorE, Raychie, Lucky, Adam, and me. Lucky declares "Lets WALK!" Adam (thankfully) looks up on his handy phone GPS the location of the other lot. It's far and zig zags. I declare "Taxi!" Lucky then declares "Well only 2 of us need to go!" Hard CorE is actually parked near the other lot (we were going to drive him to his car... clearly we are of no help now). So Lucky and CorE take the taxis to the other lot. Raychie, Adam, and myself stay and are chatting across from the closed lot while we wait.

We are talking... random normal enough looks like he is minding his own business dude walks by us in his nice pea coat and white sneakers. We think very little of this. BAM up pulls a redish SUV... out pops a very angry man.... he shouts "WE GOT A F*CKING PROBLEM HERE?" all of us + random normal enough dude (lets say RNE Dude) look at Angry Dude... "huh..." He shouts again this time clearly at RNE Dude "YOU GOT A F*CKING PROBLEM??!!!" RNE Dude shakes head No while saying "Um... NO... (looking very confused...)"

OH SH*T Angry Dude is running towards RNE Dude... oh double SH*T Angry dude has now smashed RNE Dudes HEAD into a marble WALL!!!!!!!! Nice white shoe flying off from force!! Adam Runs to break up fight... Raychie yells "Call 911!! Call 911!!" I call 911, hand phone to Raychie. Adam is breaking up fight.... Raychie is walking towards SUV to get plate numbers... homeless lady is joining the cast as is Angry Dudes Girlfriend. I immediately recognize that Angry Dudes GF is going to become a problem.

She gets out of car and starts yelling "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING B*TCH? ARE YOU CALLING THE F*CKING COPS B*TCH? YOUR NOT GETTING THIS PLATE # B*TCH!!!!!!!" I run towards Raychie and get between her and GF!! (Big fat crazy GF FYI.) Just in time... GF is making her fat waddle way towards Raychie who is on phone with back to her... BOOM GF is pushing me saying "WHO THE F*CK ARE YOU B*TCH? WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?" Me.... "Really.... who am i? WHO are you?" Homeless lady can be heard yelling "Why do **white people always have to be fightin with black people ... anyone got a dollar?" Angry Dude is back and yelling "B*TCH WHAT ARE YOU DOING GET IN THE F*CKING CAR B*TCH!! GET IN THE CAR!!" GF "THIS B*TCH IS TRYING TO CALL THE COPS ON US!" Angry Dude "GET IN THE CAR!" Homeless lady and Angry Dude get GF in the car.... Angry dude gets to drivers side.... GF is back out of the car yelling again and trying to take her too small for her jacket off so she can "Fight!" (eye roll)

Homeless lady and Angry Dude get GF back in the car AGAIN... they drive off.... RNE Dude is gone.... 911 operator is hung up on.

911 operator conversation went like this:
Raychie: The plate # is ----
911: What kind of # is that?
R: i told you a Delaware plate #, # ----
911: Can you tell me the # again?... (GF is pushing and people are yelling in background) What is all the ruckus?
R: ARE YOU KIDDING ME? THIS IS WHY I AM CALLING YOU!!!

SO RNE Dude is gone with a bleeding head. Adam, Raychie, and I are left with a homeless lady trying to get money from us and wondering if we were just on some hidden camera show.

CorE & Lucky return with keys.... Lucky is mad we didn't get her pizza BUT she guesses she can let us off the hook b/c of the whole drama... other wise we would be in trouble for not getting her pizza.

** i'm half Mexican though i consider myself white many a white person does not... so do i still fall under a "white" person "Fightin" with a black person?

(yes this story really is true and crazy... and again... nothing good happens after 2am)

Fill in the _______!!

This post is all _____! And I have been up to _____ and ______ with a side of ____! I can't believe ______ is already almost over! It went so _______! Wow i'm using a lot of __!! LO_.

So who is ready for the ______? I know i __. I have an awesome _______ game on _____. and i think it will be tons of ____. You know and i ____ that i _____ DERBY!!

I have been super _____ planning my ________. It's _____ and fun... and i'm just so _____ that it's all ______ together so _____! And my ______ is excited. Which makes __ happy.

Well i hope ____ enjoy your _____! and be glad it's almost _______!!!!!!!!

Blog more!! Sure… I’ll get right on that…

So a little list of things I am trying to follow or do or something:
1. Wear my hair down at least once a week to work
2. Not buy cereal, snacks, or frozen yogurt until current stock is gone UNLESS there is a super giant happy sale (b/c saving money is always nice).
3. Buy more things at thrift stores.
4. Wear more Jewelry (especially since I will be going to the Bead Show this weekend!).
5. Oh don’t buy more tea until giant stock pile of current tea is down some… Also in that same category don’t buy hot tea from other places make my own damn tea.

That is just my tiny list of things to follow and or do to make for a better me. (also seems a thriftier me…)

Other things to talk about… Well my Honey and I had a little mini vacation and it was wonderful. Often times I overlook (is that what I’m looking for) the little tiny ways my honey shows he cares. But on our mini vacation those things somehow magnified and I was able to just relish in them and realize how great our relationship is. Maybe that all sounds gooey with gooey coating but it’s the truth. Like I have been you know watching what I eat and working out like a crazy lady the past 5 months or so… and the past few weekends I went to places just to eat. I got to forget calories and to just enjoy good food. SO Honey says “I like that you want to go places just to eat… its good.” That simple statement made me really happy b/c he wasn’t telling me to back away from the double scoop gelato cone or to put down the millionth hand full of carmel popcorn…. He was enjoying me enjoying myself.

It was also an interesting time b/c we spent the long weekend with his dad and stepmom… something we never have really done for more then 2 hours. It was neat to hear stories of little Honeyface. Also it’s nice to see him getting along with his dad (is that what I’m looking for?). While I know it’s not all sunshine and butterflies (their relationship) it’s nice to see happy moments when you can.

Then my mini vacation was rounded out nicely with mom & sis time! We had a good night of bargain hunting (our favorite) & food (2nd favorite… I don’t know…). I get to hang out with them again at the BEAD SHOW…. Not the same as the JEM SHOW… but almost the same! LOL and it’s the BEAD Show… not the BEACH YO… or BEACH OW. NOPE the BEAD SHOW. (yeah I know.)

Last night at Derby I got a nice slice of butt burn! YEAH! Makes for a super hot below butt cheek burn/ rash looking thing. It also reminds me that I play derby not happy fluffy yummy pillow time. As I told my sister this AM…I make this statement for the players that act all shocked when they get hurt… like… how…could…this HAPPEN?! Oh yeah knock knock… YOU PLAY DERBY! That’s not to say I don’t understand someone being upset or being hurt… it’s just how are you shocked you got hurt?

Ok well this post is long enough… or so I tell myself. Enjoy your Thursday… I will be enjoying mine!

Yes... really... do tell!

Still working out which to me is a surprise I have been keeping up with a good workout routine now for almost 6 months! I guess it helps that I have Roller Derby 2 times a week. And it helps that I see actual results of my labors! But to keep things ever changing so my body doesn’t get use to the same old same old I have amped it up this week. I started using a 5 lb weight in places I would use a 3 lb one and I use the 5+3=8 lb weight in places I was using the 5 lb weight. I am totally feeling the change so it’s pretty bad ass! LOL (note that i am not a member of any gym i have done this whole weight loss muscle gain with just DVDs, hand weights, and running / walking... oh and roller skating! LOL)

I know however soon (like maybe this week) I’ll have to purchase a new DVD or 2 because I really need to change things up to avoid the body getting use to everything and burning hardly any calories at all. I really want a good cardo DVD. Jillian’s Banish Fat Boost Metabolism has been very good to me so it would be great to find something just as wonderful! I suppose the research shall begin! I might have to become a member of Netflix to try out workout DVD’s… I’ll have to see what their collection includes. Hmmmmmm….

Other things in life include blah blah and blah with a side of BLAH! LOL

Roller Derby is… AWESOME!
Fiancé is … FUN!
Apartment is… SO VERY NICE!
Family is … WONDERFUL
Friends are… GREAT.

And a batter dipped deep fried PB&J Sandwich is AMAZING! I highly recommend if you ever get the chance.

Well until the next time I feel like typing. BYE

I am Chatty Cathy…

Well I woke up super early today and I worked out and then I got to walk with my one and only! So I’m all hopped up on BLACK TEA!!!! I brewed 2 bags in one cup which = trouble! But I’m ok with it. Are you? O’wait I don’t care. :oP

It’s been forever and then some since I last took any care for you blog… I’m deeply apologetic since mounds of things have happened since last we did meet:


Derby – my passion, life, and vigor for the past few months … phenomenal! Roller Derby with the Penn Jersey Roller Derby is phenomenal! I am on a team and my team is filled with super nice ladies who also happen to kick butt! :O) The league is filled with even more super nice ladies and gents that kick butt! It’s just over all an amazing fun filled piece of my life!

Family – Mom & Sister always amazing… DUH! If you have read an inch of this blog you would know how wonderful they both are! The wonderfulness of them hasn’t left one little bit it’s only gotten better! We continue to have fun crazy wacky times together that will forever be cherished by me!


Honey face head (one and only) – His job is finally calming down which means HE is calming down. WHICH means we get to do lots of fun seemingly boring things together. Like go for walks in the morning, eat at a new restaurant, pick out a car alarm, make dinner together, watch the Tee Vee together, and other stuff that people would think was boring BUT when done in pairs is much more enjoyable!

Un-Fatting – As of today I am down 22 lbs. I don’t intend to lose too much more… and I’m pretty certain that I will post pictures for you to see actual results b/c I find them motivating… maybe you will as well. Or maybe you will just go on a tangent saying this chick is full of herself who really wants to see pics of her before and after. Pfffft! Friday (o today) is technically the end of our challenge. BUT as we changed so did the club… I don’t think there will be any consequences for anyone. We will just continue to support each other and keep up with the jobs well done!
With my weight loss came… SHOPPING!! And going from a size 12 at one store to a size 6! Going from a size 10 to a 4! Also, going from shirts that say XL to ones that say S and gasp even a few that say XS. NOT that sizes matter but dang does it feel nice! Don’t get me wrong I have literally worked my buns off to get here. There was no magical wand I waved to make this happen… b/c if you will note I started this on March 7th… it is now July 16th. You do the math. About 19 weeks… 19 weeks = 22 lbs. Also since I shared the DVDs that I worked out to before I will share the new ones I added to my routine. Personal Training with Jackie (where she kicks your butt… granted her and Jillian have the same principles BUT their workouts do indeed make you hurt in different places), then there is this Random Scott Pilates DVD (note the link does not take you to the one i have b/c it's so random i can't find it on the www) my mom had given me one year for my birthday, and finally (at this current moment) Shiva Rea Yoga (this yoga DVD isn't stupid like many i have come across the routines are nice and actually make you sweat... though there is ONE segment where you just lie on the floor and i feel asleep... yeah you read that right). I also continue to throw Jillian in there at random times to make sure things are switched up often!

There is plenty of other stuff that has happened, backpacking, zip lining, rock wall climbing, derby games, trying to plan a kind of wedding, work, work, and more work. I’m just glad I wrote this post.


So until next time b/c who knows when that will be… enjoy your life! I’m enjoying mine!

wow

i just realized i have 2 post for 2010 vs the bunch of post i had in 2008... 2009 had a bunch too but not as much as 2008... guess i was more word filled in 2008.... hmmm.

Random out of the blue post

So is it crippling to see an ad for a part time job that has remedial tasks but offers the same amount of pay you currently get for your over stuffed full time job? Does it make you want to apply for said part time job? The answer to both questions are YES!! WOW it’s kind of terrible really. But will I apply for the part time job… most likely NO. Why because if I start a part time job and it’s all good for a while… (oh yeah forget the part where I wont have health care) but then it gets boring and I go to look for another job… how do you explain why you went from working FT to PT without sounding like a lazy person? Oh well the PT job paid the same as the FT except I could work less… and have more me time. (b/c I don’t have children, sick person to take care of… or other acceptable reasons for working less when you could work more.) BLAH to all of this… this whole paragraph.

What else… I haven’t blogged in forever. And I don’t like that but I’ve accepted it. sorry if you haven’t… that makes me slightly sad for you but mostly I feel nothing b/c I’m dead inside. Ok I’m not dead inside I just don’t feel bad b/c I have been super busy! With new apartment, roller derby, laundry (did you know it breeds when your not looking?), being less fat (yeah you read that right 14 lbs and counting wahoo), and other various things that seem more important then blogging.

Sure I have tons of topics to blog about and crazy stories. But they all slipped into the sleepy dust and it’s not very likely that we will see them again (that is totally from an Eisley song you’ll get over it). … what’s that you say you want to hear about the process of un-fatting (wow that is a word AWESOME... wait it's a word in Word but not according to blogger Compose... see my note to Compose for further hate). Well I have been watching calories (thank you myplate) and I did the 30 day shred (if I’m brave I might post the actual photographic evidence showing you how that worked out), then I switched onto 2 of Jillian Michaels other workout DVDs: No more trouble zones & Banish fat boost metabolism (thank goodness it isn’t the other way around). With some jogging and lots of skating mixed in and BAM I have lost 14 lbs since March 7th and counting! It’s been a lot of work BUT the way I figure it… in retrospect it took me I don’t know 6-7 years to get this fatty fat so a few months ½ year to get un-fat is NOTHING! And then of course keeping up with it will be another challenge but one I’m more then ready to take on.

Should I also mention that I am part of a fat club… it consists of my 2 friends and me. We support each other and have an ultimate punishment for the fatty that doesn’t lose the most weight by July 16th!! So that is a lot of motivation right there. But it has sort of turned more into a lifestyle change and wanting to keep up with it. Which is really cool. So I have been super busy trying to make sure I exercise and eat healthy everyday. Sorry blog you have once again suffered the consequences. (side note i typed this all in word then copied it over to blogger and i had to use the Edit Html to paste b/c Compose doesn't like you pasting. well screw you Compose Edit Html is way nicer then you ever were.) Anyways this is my random out of the blue post and you love it.

Bye bye now. (notice i put a few links in to lead you to the un-fat things i have been using... just showing you... not suggesting that you need un-fatting... just showing you.)

Dusting off my blog…

I know it’s been awhile but I have a tale to tell!

So I moved into an apartment FINALLY!!! OUR own place! It’s very wonderful! But that is besides the point… or maybe it’s part of the point… :O)

As we all know I hate the evil place that shall not be named… Well my Honey had time to himself (which seems like a good idea) and he found some furniture on line from the evil place. So he thought he would go to the evil place in person to check it out… but SURPRISE they didn’t have the furniture however they did have other things he needed… like bread, cereal, and a few other food items. So he thought “well I’m already here so I’ll just get a few things.” NOW I know what about to say is going to make me sound like a hysterical lunatic but I don’t care.

The evil place won that day. It won it did what it planned to do all along… it got you in there with false ads… and when you couldn’t find what you came for instead of leaving b/c they didn’t have what you went for you got distracted and spent money there anyway on something totally irrelevant to your purpose. Something that could have been bought somewhere else better that actually had the things you were looking for instead of falsely advertised not things!

Now I know that is the purpose of many places to get you in… and get you to stay and spend money… but I just feel the evil place has a freak show ability to do this to people! And I know it’s just a few items he bought… and in the long run doesn’t make them a bunch of money… but I still feel like buying things from them is like just giving them my paycheck that I work to get from them to begin with. I work 5 days a week to get the pay check I get FROM them why would, I then go and give it right back to them? b/c I have a false sense of low prices from them?

Let’s just face the bottom line… I hate them!

The End…