Brain Dump Ahead

So many things on my co-fangled mind as of late. The foremost topic I suppose is how women deal with men. How a lot of us take heaping plies of crap after pile and still stay around. How we convince ourselves that either they are worth all this trouble. Or somehow we won’t find better, Or worse yet that we aren’t worthy of better, or that we somehow deserve this awful relationship because it’s just little old us. I have one friend who is living with her ex-boyfriend who cheated on her with too many girls. Then I have a friend that is sandwiched between a guy that she doesn’t like and an ex that cheated on her! Then I have a friend who is about to get out of a bad relationship but I suspect she will be returning to her ex that was never really in their relationship to begin with! I know plenty more ladies like this…

But all these ladies in my eyes worthy of better, deserving of more…If only they could see! I myself I suppose should not talk I have been there in the crap relationship…But I am working hard on making my current one as best as it can be. I do realize that relationships are hard work and compromise. But when is the work too much? When is it time to call it what it is…. DONE? Also I do realize there are many times when the situation is reversed where the girl is the ass that the guy should leave. This isn’t an anti guy blog…not yet at least. (LOL)

Then I have been thinking about young people and their lack of respect for sex. So many young people don’t realize that sex is a big deal despite the way it’s just mis-handled in TV, Movies, and the interweb. They think it’s just some right of passage maybe or that it’s what everyone is doing. They think STD’s can’t affect them or even better maybe if they get one they can have a TV show! Just like the genius that gave 16 and pregnant the go ahead! That show…what is it going to do besides give more young girls the idea of a way to get a show? What’s next 14 and pregnant?

No one is taught to respect their body. Or that sex is a big giant deal. That you can’t just fling it around and do or have it with anyone and that’s that. It makes me physically ill the number of under 16 year olds on myspace or facebook mostly naked with headlines or labels that say “I wanna play” or “come and get me” or “I’m so lonely.” RESPECT your self. You only have one self and one time do you really want Joe dirty bird to be the guy you let have any kind of sex with you (because FYI oral sex has sex in the name for a reason….it’s sex).

And saying kids are different these days is BULL SHIT. Yeah they are having sex sooner but that means nothing that is just and indication no a symptom of the way they are raised. I have noticed that younger people (not all but A LOT) are far less mature then when I was that age. So saying they are different ready at a younger age is again BULL SHIT. Keeping it in your pants should be able to withstand the hands of time! We aren’t back in the dark ages where a person lived to be 30. Then I could see a 16 year old getting pregnant but then again they were most likely married. Don’t get me started on underage drinking and drug use. Or even the media’s wonderful portrayal of alcohol and drugs.

Then this just in…my boyfriend is being accused by some random person of rear-ending them in philly on a day we were driving home from OC MD in my car. MY CAR. He didn’t even take his car out at all that day. I believe we have enough proof to end this before it becomes a big deal. But how does this random stuff happen?! The most random crazy crap happens to us a lot. If this person really got rear-ended by someone and they some how gave out my boyfriends information or the person just got their own info wrong it sucks for the person that got rear-ended. OY the world it’s in shambles.

These are just a few of the things on my mind. The end for now.

Like a breath of not so fresh air

Finally contact had been made and even though the circumstances were terrible i was glad to hear the voice on the other end. Things have changed and yet somethings always stay the same. I never left you just in case you were wondering.

Well it's Friday people and that is a lovely thing indeed. I got a cute new pair of shoes last night b/c my payless had my size! SCORE! My sister and i attempted to fix my hair color well fix makes it sound wrong but she knows what i mean. (and since she is the one who reads this... LOL). After she left i watched the Fashion show. SO GLAD project runway is returning soon!

I need to finish the ever growing blanket! so hopefully my weekend will be filled with some crocheting. Who knows? i surely do not. I'm trying to get more of a weekend not plan but idea and it's just all fuzzy so it's a Roll with the punches kind of weekend a head. Which may hopefully prove to be very fun!

enjoy.

Some wedding pics i stole

Soccer and food

Soccer was fun as always. I blocked some goals (sorry brother in law). I tried to block some goals and failed. I took a ball in the butt, stomach, each arm, thigh, shin, and I think knee…LOL. The one in the butt is the one currently bothering me the others not so much. I got slimmed a couple of times…gross. One guy was wearing a half shirt….eww. Another guy has decided to not wear a shirt and just wear the orange mesh thing…eww. I knocked a guy down asked if he was ok and didn’t help him up….is that wrong? He was sweaty and gross…..I’m mean…o well.

My sister and mom showed up. Can’t wait to hear their commentary on the video they made. Evil ladies! LOL There were girls playing besides me. The one girl I would say was like 19-22 maybe I could be over estimating. I don’t know for sure what her name was because some people called her Jenn, some called her Jess and the one guy who calls every girl Jackie called her Jackie. He called me Jackie and I didn’t even know b/c I figured he wasn’t talking to me. Then two much younger girls joined us. One was super squeaky. LOL as younger girls tend to be. So it was a fun night.

Now on to talk of food: I woke up super early and had breakfast with a co-worker. We like to switch it up every once in a great while and instead of having lunch together we have breakfast. I so wanted a darn scone. Sister and her talk of them! Make some for me! Or help me find good ones near me! LOL. But instead I had egg whites wheat toast and a fruit cup. THEN around 10am I had one of those cookie dough pop-tarts! YUM. Thanks sis! I guess you’re forgiven for the scone problem. I’m hungry again! It’s now 11. UGH. What to have for lunch?

Ok I should go now and work since its Tuesday.

Weekend...no more weddings ok?

So this will hopefully be the last time i write about being in a wedding. I am for real. They can be pretty and fun but a lot goes into it and leads up to it and oy to the vey! This wedding was nice ok....it was drama filled and there were lots of mishaps for the poor bride to have to overcome. Her hair fell out, her florist did exactly the opposite of what she wanted and guess the hell what the florist only had to do her bouquet b/c us bridesmaids had parasols, her make-up took too long so she didn't get all the pictures she wanted (but her photographer was awesome), people were late, the lemon aid had to be Gatorade, the DJ played none of the music she listed for him, her sister in-laws boyfriend then threatened the DJ (to his credit he was just trying to make the bride happy in the wrong way), then her brother in-law was trying to start a fight with her friend's husband who did NOTHING and i mean not one darn thing to the stupid drunk moron brother in-law. BUT despite it all she walked down the aisle looking lovely and i think she had a good time.

I didn't make it to the after party my tummy was hurting and i was super tired. I'm old what can i say. Camping worked out great. it would have been better had we brought stuff for a fire but you live you learn. The weather was perfect and i mean perfect. Their house was super nice that they were staying in i am curious as to what the after prime time rate would be on it....but then again i guess if i was going to rent a house it would be in the outer banks of NC. Anyways, my honey injured himself slightly (or a lotly) by renting a jet ski.... while i was getting ready for the wedding at the fancy house. he can't walk easily now. not good.

I had a strange encounter at the wedding.... that is all i will say about that. Now i want to see the pictures the wedding photographer took! COME ON ALREADY! LOL

Alright tonight is make your sis and mom go to soccer night night so i should go and finish work so i can viva soccer! yes! have a great night!

Life has interesting twists

So an ex that lied so much i still have no idea what the real truth of the matter is, is now going to seminary school i believe... No one saw that coming. And can a person change that much with out going back and analyzing their former self? Or has the former self been analyzed? I don't know. I am not God. I can't judge oh but boy do i want to. I want to point my giant finger in all the directions and make a big scene! But it will do no good other then to make me look like an ass. Even though i don't understand it, i hope it's honest and true what he is doing and not just some ploy.

Moving on. Last night Dan and I had a nice dinner at a place where our orders were taken and correct and on time and everything was butterflies and fairies. LOL. Basically it was the total opposite of that horrid place in New Hope. So we had a great dinner. Then i proceeded to go home and pass out. I did not crochet or load pictures or anything other then sleep. But it was nice i needed it.

Too bad i dreamt that i slept an entire work day away with out calling in sick and i had to apologize an entire day away the next day. I hate those kinds of dreams. Oh i failed to mention that i was working at an old old job but some of my current work people where there too. OK it was actually more like every person i ever hated working with or for working there.....UGH. But somehow i left my desk in a way that looked like i was working on huge projects that would bring tons of money in....so they were happy with me. Very strange.

also i need to stop eating chocolate chip cookies. Who's bright idea was it to buy an entire container of them? WHO?! Oh that was me....dammit. I keep giving them away yet here they are staring at me....6 left and i have eaten 2 so far today...SOMEONE else please eat them....hey skinny little young girl EAT MORE COOKIES! The fat old lady can only allow her ass to spread so far! Critical mass....or should i say ass?

Wow look i can blog an entire blog using ass too much. good job me. i think i'll finish now before i increase my ass anymore.

The rest of size 14

So my last post left off on Friday night. Saturday I woke up and mostly crocheted and watched the rest of “Cry Baby” and most of “House Bunny.” Cry Baby is such a good movie. It’s cheesy but funny and great. Ricki lake did some great movies in her fat years. So after all that I got ready and we went to my aunt’s house for a 4th of July picnic.

Honey butt manned the grill and I manned the bag of chips and container of dip. That was quite the job. My cousin Spence eventually took the chips away from me. It was sad but I suppose my booty was happy because it had reason to stop spreading. Over all, the picnic was fun. Most everyone went to watch the Q-town fireworks and they returned and thought the fireworks were short. Well the reason is one of the firework technicians got killed (we didn’t find this out until the next day). He was only 19 years old. Really super sad. But my mom said the way the thing is set up the firework people are 2-3 hills away from the crowd so there was no way to know that one of them got injured. Also the ambulances are there standing by waiting so you wouldn’t see one rushing in. So that is sad.

Moving on… Dan and I stayed pretty late until like midnight I think. And he left his phone at my aunts so… Sunday morning I wake up to “I NEED your aunt to Forward my phone NOW!” After a few tries of her doing that, I just took a quick shower and drove to her house and back so he could have his phone. Yes I deserve saint hood….or at least a good meal….which leads us to the Villa Vito drunk uncle hot mess-ness of Sunday, which is sad because Dan was trying to feed me good food. We just didn’t count on every person working there being without a brain. But I did get good ice cream. The funny thing about Dan and me going to New Hope very rare do we go into a store.

Now yesterday was Monday and I had did not play soccer. I went to my moms. I just can’t play soccer with out the Brother in Law. He told me to go play but it didn’t happen. My moms was fun, I crocheted a lot. Yes if you must know I am working on a last minute crocheted gift yet again. Why do I do this you might ask? Because I am insane. I think I will be sending it in the mail after the fact. Sometimes that happens in life. The bride will get over it…..hopefully. LOL

Today is Tuesday. Most of us know what that means for me. But on top of that….i am having a not so great day. Day 2 of sis away…..so no chatting her to make the day A. more fun and B. go a little quicker. But at least someone just broke their silence…ok I guess I should like work or something. Have a good day. Please.

Just call me Size 14.

So just yesterday the honey and I decide to go to New Hope. And I’m starving so you know what the means? Feed the Topaz. Well we decided to try Villa Vito. OH boy what a mistake. First, we got seated almost in the dog section which would not be a problem except I’m allergic to some dogs. But not only that what if it were someone like my sister who almost got seated in this section she is VERY allergic to dogs. She would have left once a person with a dog was seated near her b/c she is that allergic! Luckily someone (one of the many, many people working there but not really working) stopped the girl from seating us in the dog section. This girl was not the brightest bulb either let me tell you.

So Then we sit and wait…..and wait……for someone to ask what we want to drink….. Uncle must be drunk takes our drink order with slow girl standing with him. My honey asks him what is in the chocolate martini he says he doesn’t know and will go ask the bar tender. While waiting for him to ask the bar tender about 5 minutes into our wait Slow girl asks us what we would like to drink….UM you were standing with us when he took our drink order…. She would be person #2 to ask us about drinks. So then person #3 asks us about drinks UGH I tell person #3 “Well you’re the 3rd person to ask us and yet we still don’t have drinks.” He then proceeds to tell me that his uncle (our waiter) does whatever he wants….he’s crazy like that. WHAT?!

So Drunk Uncle returns and tells my honey what is in the chocolate martini and my honey declines and orders a dirty martini with grey goose…and the guy repeats it wrong to him so my honey corrects him. Our drinks (or someone’s at a different tables)arrive, I wanted a sweet tea got unsweetened but when I tried to get my waiters attention he kept ignoring me so finally my boyfriend got up and got me sugar for my tea. My boyfriend ordered a dirty martini (remember) only to get the chocolate martini he didn’t want. The waiter tells him that the bar tender wanted him to try the chocolate martini b/c he just had to and if he didn’t like it he would get him what he wanted….my honey does not like it. So the waiter brings him what is supposed to be a dirty martini only its vodka on the rocks. So honey had to go up and get the olives b/c our waiter was no where to be found.

Then comes the food….my meal was supposed to include ziti which I wanted to eat with my chicken and broccoli Alfredo....too bad the ziti came out about 15 minutes after my chicken and it came out with a white wine sauce. Our waiter took forever with everything. I asked to speak to the manager only to get our waiter which either means he was the manager or no one listens to you. I just wanted to complain about how wrong everything was only to have him defend himself to me very poorly. It was awkward to have to talk to him about how awful he was. And it seemed like he was drunk. I love (read hate hate hate) dealing with drunk people. When he finally brought our check we just paid inside instead of waiting the GOD ONLY knows how much time he would have taken to get to us. Oh I failed to mention how he was going to “discount” our check b/c he didn’t want us to leave in a bad mood. Too bad all he did was take off the drink I didn’t order.

Also upon visiting their web site I love how the very last thing it says is that their top priority is making sure their customers are satisfied. RIGHT. Try not letting uncle drunk face be a waiter even if he is an owner. UGH. THIS PLACE left us in a terrible mood the rest of our day. AND me in a bad mood plus mostly empty stomach not a pretty sight!! I have included the picture of their sign with this post of if ever in New Hope do NOT go to the Villa Vito unless you hate yourself.

Other events of the weekend…I did go hiking on real Friday! It was very pretty! And fun! LOVE IT! I hope I hike more! Then I went to the mall. Lucky brand jeans were having there twice annual sale. I love (read hate hate hate) stores that only have sales twice a year and you should get excited about it. Like yippee for once I might be able to afford one thing from your store. Well my honey really likes their jeans. So he wanted me to help him pick out some. He made me try some on. HA. I am too fat for their jeans. In the ladies sizes they only go up to a 32.” ALSO according to them a 32” is = to a size 14! 14! So what I am size 16? 18? Are you f’ing kidding me? But in men’s they go up to like a size 40 something…how does that make sense? FOR the record also when I fit into a size 31” I was wearing size 6. So how a 32 could be size 14 I’m unsure. ALSO way to make customers feel SUPER FAT! Thank you lucky (not so lucky) brand jeans. If you happen to see me after a week of not eating blame lucky brand jeans. SIZE 14!

But Honey face did buy me a really cute shirt from the Limited (FYI one of my favorite stores). He was really trying to buy me stuff for some reason. Yet I could not find anything that fit me and was on sale. So we eventually went home and watched or well partly watched some movies. One movie was very strangely recorded it was super shaky so we had to stop watching it. Then I attempted to watch “Loathing in Las Vegas” but it was just too stupid for me. I guess being straight edge it’s hard to find the humor in a movie where the whole point is these people being messed up. Super. Look super is a sentence all on its own. Fabulous. Oh but not fabulous word does not like that as its own sentence. Anyways, then we watched some crazy anime. Anime can be fun sometimes. Other times it can just make no sense and be super crazy like the amount of sex in anime is kind of out of control. Then again when I think of the people that like it….Never mind.

Ok….next post I’ll continue telling you about my weekend. This post is getting long. So have a great Monday back from a long weekend have a wedding this weekend….you don’t? I do.

Food Now.

I am hungry and i want food. WATCH OUT EVERYONE!! What the heck fake Friday is nice and all but i want food. Breakfast bagel or Breakfast anything would be nice!! I have cream of wheat but i want more!!! FEED ME!! FEED ME!!

Man anyways. This week is a short one! wahoo! And i am going hiking tomorrow! Double Wahoo!! Hopefully i can get the honey to go hiking with me! He will love it. Saturday is family picnic day and i was going to try and visit a baby. But i don't know if that will happen. Plus when i explain my plans to the Honey he sort of thinks I'm insane for always doing so much. I can't help it. The thought of waiting around all day for the picnic to start makes me ill.

But i do have a blanket i need to work on.....SHUT UP I'll get it done before the wedding next weekend....or not....hopefully....maybe...possibly.....might...happen....if i wish on a lucky star, draw a circle using a purple piece of chalk, stomp three times in the middle of the circle, rub my elbows against my knees, shake my head 4 times to the left, and hold a new born baby... isn't that what you do to get something crocheted on time? No not what you do? hmmmmm

My hair is rock'n right now. I am still not sure on the color...but we shall see. The cut is awesome!! LOVE IT! And i like the color just don't know if i like on me. Everyone else likes it which to me usually means something is wrong. Sis knows what I'm talking about. When the Norms tell you that your hair looks good something doesn't seem right...

Also sis's sort of b-day dinner went off great! Us Last minute Juarez's know how to pull something together! :o) Purple finger tip and all. LOL i should post a picture of her one gift on here someday. That however would require effort....I'm not so good at the effort when i get home and there is a bed near by.

Alright i should finish babbling now. You may go about your fake Friday business.