Sorry i had to cuss

And the annoyance of the day today…..”You can’t be cold!” OK….i don’t know how many times I have heard this in my life…and I don’t think it gets any less annoying the more I here it… Why do people feel the need to tell you how YOU should feel? I’m sorry oh…did you turn into me for a few moments and feel how I FEEL? Oh…no you didn’t? OH REALLY YOU DIDN’T?! So how about you shut the heck up and don’t tell me how I FEEL….KAY?!

I am always cold when others are not….i can say it till I’m blue in the face….I AM COLD. So you telling me that “I can’t be” is excuse me FUCKING RIDICULOUS! Not to mention asinine and stupid! And next time you have a feeling I’ll be sure to fucking tell you what it is!!!!! OH you “Can’t be” hungry you ate 2 days ago! Oh you “Can’t” have a need to use the bathroom after the 12 cups of coffee you had….OH what’s that NO YOU CAN’T HAVE A DIFFERENT FEELING THEN ME….because we are the fucking same!

Maybe you watch too much tv or buy into the hype that we are all the same sheep that follow a line and can’t be indistinguishable from one another BUT I believe I CAN….oh and DO feel different then you so how about we agree that NO you indeed DON’T know how I feel!! OH OH and you saying that I “can’t be cold” b/c it’s not even that cold outside….NEWSFLASH ASSHAT we are not outside and I DON’T have a window let alone 2 in my office….so again SHUT UP!

AND YES STUPID FUCK FACE I AM COLD. FUCKING COLD…..maybe your FUCKING HINT to this should be that I have a blanket on and my hood up in a FUCKING BUILDING!! FUCK FACE!

Have a FUCKING wonderful Friday. I’ll be turning blue and still someone will say “You CAN’T BE COLD!” (Really I was trying not to cuss but damn they asked for that shit!)

*on a side note…. Say No to Drugs. Say YES to TACOS!*

Frustration & Calm

So # 1 frustration today….People who can’t own up to their mistakes! I can own up to mine can you? It pisses me off that they A.lie followed by B. blame me….then C. never apologize or retract their statement about me. In these times (aren’t you sick of people saying that) the last thing anyone needs in the work place is something wrongfully or unjustly blamed on them! I am not perfect but I triple check my work in most cases and keep a nice long paper trail! So next time you want to set up to plate against me you better have your SH*T together because I hate liars the most out of everyone!

ON a totally different note:


HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM!!!


TO MOM:


YOU ARE the most wonderful person in the world. I’m not just saying that because I’m your daughter. I’m saying that because of what you have and always do put out to the world. You care about people. You help everyone you can even if they never were entirely interested in helping you. You don’t hassle others to get your way YOU MAKE your way….YOUR OWN WAY! You inspire me to be a more compassionate person and a more understanding person. You find a sense of humor in a cruel and unjust world. You make the best of what you have and you showed me how to do that as well. You have done everything (I swear) humanly possible to make the best life for me and Sara. We never felt unloved by you or like we were missing something. And now with age and time I am realizing just how amazing you really are/were/ will always be. I feel like I’m bragging when I talk about you and yet I am overwhelmed with happiness and joy. YOU ARE THE BEST MOTHER/PERSON IN THE WORLD. YOU really are. And if I ever were to become a mother THANK GOD I have the best possible example of what one should be.


She is the sunrise in an empty sky
She is the rock in a vast sea
She is the river in a desolate desert
She is the hope in a ravaged world
She is the sweetness in a bitter war
She is the total calm in a horrid storm
She is everything he will NEVER be
She is my mother.

Blog days and blog nights

Crazy stuff has been happening the past few days. The owner of one of my favorite pizza places (and actually i love all the pizza places run by his family) was beaten to death in his shop before opening. They are saying that the person responsible knew he would be alone.....and that they most likely used their fists....on a 68 year old MAN! and they didn't take any of the money he had on him or in the register! ITS HORRIFIC! and just so AWFUL! I knew him a bit and he was such a super nice guy ALL of his family is. And they make good food and have fine places of business! Who ever did this better be saying his/her prayers b/c they have a special spot in hell!

Then my honey got into a car accident he is fine but it's just another suck thing to deal with insurance and BS! and now they are saying the wheel that got bent is a 500$ wheel only found in Japan! Crazy!

So i'll talk about my trip to NC some other time today i am just trying to NOT think about how awful people can be. you do the same!

So IT begins….

I am trying to stop IT I swear! What is IT? IT is IT! Just kidding….IT is my inability to stay away from the internet! HELP….I have a list of things I need to get done before I leave…so I should be a good girl and stay away! (Look I am going away!)

While I’m away I have promised myself NO SWEET TEA! It’s like crack! And the last thing I need is crack! But I might get one of those sugar up’ed iced chocolate caramel things! They are so yummy! But I really shouldn’t should i?

Also I mostly want to hang on the beach if the weather is nice and read. No going to the outlets because they are bad for me. And no buying any dog treats because I can’t take them on the plane with me. But I can enjoy the beach because it is free! And I can relax at the beach house because my Honey’s Gram mother is kind enough to let me stay there for free. Kind very kind!

I do want to get a few choice meals while I am there. Like my light on the sauce double broccoli pizza and buffalo chips (especially these!) So look food is more important to me then anything else….so what! I might try and stop at the used book stores while I am there! THEY are so much fun!

Ok look I have day dreamed enough time to get through this day that is in the way! I swear sorta promise kinda that I most likely will stay away from the distractions on the computer for a small portion of the day in the way….maybe…

Have a wonderful Day in the WAY! I know I won’t! (I meant…will…..won’t….will….you can see where this day in the way is going…right?!)

Something clever.....

I just felt like i should blog or something....

Oh OK....um i finished 2 crocheting projects and maybe someday i will take photos of them. Who knows! I still have a few (read million) things i want to do and finish. Crocheting is lots of fun but it takes lots of time. And sometimes you keep thinking it has to be done by now! And it's not!

My friends baby is so cute! He is such a little bundle. I leave for NC in 2 days. I have a dress that wont zip right and last night i tried the liquid soap suggestion from online....so did not work! So i guess i shall bring a back up dress in case this one wont zipper. (really sad!) I have so many errands to run during lunch i may not have time for my favorite one....FOOD!

Wow i am boring so i am just going to be done.

Have a swell Wednesday! (PS what happened to blogger its different...)

just a tad INSANE

Ha it's been a roller coaster for the past....well since 5:30 last night. We looked at an AWESOME PERFECT Apartment....why did we do this to ourselves? Oh b/c apparently we like having golden rings lingering just enough out of reach in front of us! Yippee!

I made a budget and DAMMIT i am sticking too it! No more making excuses no more ignoring the problem...i am being a grown up now. Taking responsibility DAMMIT. (grown ups say DAMMIT right (in all capitals like that) right...)

My honey decided much to his dismay to NOT go for the apartment which i think is the right choice....a sad one but the right one. Maybe it's my fault maybe it's both of our faults. BUT it is going to change. I am going to make myself realize that even though my debt isn't so giant it's still not OK and i need to get rid of it so i can move on with life!

I know blogging about things kind of makes them 95% likely to not happen but DAMMIT it will happen. If i have to eat nothing but roman and something else cheap....to make it happen it is on!

OK enough about that....it's FRIDAY so have a great FRIDAY DAMMIT!

just a TAD sweet

That is what kind of tea i have been drinking.....but i'm beginning to wonder if i can't use that phrase to describe myself. I am just a TAD sweet, with a TAD pissy, and a HEAPING amount of annoyed. LOL

Last night was super duper fun! 2.99$ shirts and food! Did i mention the food? the "shrooms" yum and the snickers thing AWESOME! I love dessert! I can't wait to dig into the Carmel chocolate covered apples! Yum! FOOD! FOOD! FOOD!

Oh i am going to post a few pictures from Saturday! YEAH! Make-up & Hair (and over all look) by: Sissy face designs! (LOL my sis is awesome!)

Ready!

I am READY

For the next chapter
season
story
big accomplishment
goal
start
end
day
event
anything.

I am READY already.

4am mind

I woke up at 4 am this morning and could not go back to sleep at first i thought i had a nice case of vertigo starting up.....but i didn't want to take anything since like 2 nights ago i had to take something due to an over consumption of caffeine and taking a 3 hour nap....so i woke up and started crocheting....then i took a nice long shower and dried my hair ( i NEVER have time for that in the mornings i work)....and it was still only 5:50am. So then I tried to fall asleep again and i did for 20 minutes....and i was up again...UGH! So here i am at work. (no not at work early...yeah the hell right.)

So last night i had a good fun night! My friend Julie is so awesome! She is like so motivated and has some direction (more then i ever will i think). She is pretty and smart and maybe just maybe i think she is one of the most inspiring people i know. She is always so positive even when things in her life are not. I may have written about her before saying terrible CRAZY stuff happens to her and she is still like..."Oh I'm good...but how are you?" As if my life is anything compared to the stuff she does. Have i mentioned how great she is?

And then after her and i hung out i went home and wrote 2 letters! YES people i said 2! Awesome! i also did some crocheting....and then i went to bed. I should note that i went to bed at 11pm so i have no idea why i got up at 4am.....i do hope I'm not getting that insomnia people keep talking about. That would not be good because there are 2 major things you don't mess with when it comes to my folk... 1st is our SLEEP....2nd is our FOOD they can be re-prioritized based on our needs at the moment.

Ok this 4 am mind is done having verbal leakage. Have a sleep filled Wednesday.

25 random things....really

Your supposed to tag people but i am not going too. if you feel like typing 25 random facts about yourself go ahead.....i have a lack in my posting so i took this from facebook....fun times....enjoy my insides! lol

1. i'm half Mexican and i feel like i belong no where some days. Most white people think of me as half Mexican and most Hispanic people think of me as white. It only becomes a problem when i have to look for a job or when i come across the occasional ignorant buttholeface.

2. Being half Mexican i don't speak any Spanish what so ever.

3. My mom is the most wonderful person in this entire universe and will forever be my role model.

4. My sister is second for most wonderful and being my role model

5. My forever best friend Michelle N. is way stronger then she gives herself credit for. (and more beautiful too)

6. If i ever see my "father" again i might end up in jail.

7. i love the fact that spell check is on pretty much everything b/c i suck big time at spelling. (i'll run this list through spell check)

8.i am mostly deaf in my right ear and i am jealous of people that can use either ear to talk on the phone i can only use my left.

9. i love snowboarding b/c it's something my boyfriend and i can enjoy together

10. i also LOVE the beach LOVE LOVE LOVE it! (Holden what what!)

11. i don't think i will have kids b/c there are already so many in this world without homes so why do they have to make adoption so expensive? (my mom was one of those kids...)

12. Think of something you love and care about now multiply that by 10 and now you know how i feel about Dan.

13. i love dogs and cats but i don't think i will ever own any.

14. i hate the evil place with a passion that runs very deep and i bet if i looked into everything so much i would hate a lot more places.

15. i enjoy crocheting a lot.

16. i believe in God having my mother how could i not? She is a gift from him directly.

17. i haven't eaten Beef since the 9th Grade.

18. i have not nor do i ever plan on drinking alcohol (or using illegal drugs)

19. i am dyslectic and i worked my butt off so i could be in normal English by the 7th grade

20. i would love to learn to play the electric violin

21. i love my family ALOT and would do anything for them (i consider my friends my family as well) and sometimes i know people take advantage of that but i would never call them out on it.

22. i have worked for 13 different companies and have worked in about 19 different jobs within those companies.

23. i started getting my college degree and don't know if i'll ever finish b/c where i want to work i don't think school matters i think it's more about the people you know and i know no one.

24. i secretly hate capital i....i don't think i am so important that i need to be capitalized.

25. i am glad this list is over.