Prevention is for the Insane

So I have a question why is it that when you have a little problem people expect you to wait until it’s a giant issues to take care of it? What about prevention? What about trying to stop the avalanche from starting?

(*let’s forget for a moment that high school blows*) It’s like when I was in 11th grade and I just started trigonometry. In the first 2 weeks I realized I was not going to be able to learn from the teacher. He was not going to teach me anything so I requested a change of class because there was a class I could have taken with a different teacher. BUT NO they told me I had to be failing with math lab HELP before they would consider it. SO I have to fail before you will let me switch? I can’t switch and never have to fail? And in all honesty the more I think about it right now…if I failed the first semester would I have a chance of passing the rest of the year? I just failed to learn the first part how would I then get the second part? Also why should I have to go to math lab on my own time when I should be learning what I need to in class? It made no sense so I just failed the class. The shitty part is I didn’t need the class I was just taking it b/c I really enjoyed math. (Yes another joy high school took away from me)

So when I was at the doctors yesterday he is asking me how long my acne has been a problem and if it’s only on my face and blah blah blah. Finally he comes over to me and looks at my face and he utters “There’s not much there….not much scarring…” Yeah for me more then 5 painful zits at a time is not normal A. B. Should I wait until my entire face is so scared up and broken out that you don’t even see one space of clear skin? What is wrong with me trying to take care of this problem before it gets much worse? I really don’t understand why I should wait until my face is so bad it may never have clear skin.

I see people with scars from acne and I really am just trying to prevent myself from having that is that a crime? I realize I am lucky that I can do this but again is it wrong for me to take preventive measures? Should I just wait around for the heart attack or can I exercise and try to eat well? Should I wait for the skin cancer or can I use sun block? I know you see where I’m going but it just pisses me off that I can’t prevent something from becoming worse with out people thinking I am crazy.

P.S. my doctor is one light jog away from a heart attack himself.

Double time it!

so this weekend flew by! I saw my mom and friends. I saw very little of the washer & dryer! But that is OK. Who needs to clean when there is life to live?

Tonight is going to be super fun i can't wait! SHOPPING!!! And Saturday i get to see the Matches Again!!!! Yippee for the Matches! I hope they sing a good mix of all their songs I really love their older stuff!

Went to the doctor so hopefully the stuff he gave me works. Well he didn't give it to me i had to go bend over for CVS so they could proceed to rape me. But i have spent too much money over the past 2 years trying to fix my acne on my own.

I wish i had more compelling things to type OH just for my sis i will leave you with this...

I am going on a one day trip for work and my sis asked me if i was getting a bonus and i replied...
Probably not, i bet they think it's a privilege for me to fly on a plane as opposed to swimming across the boarder. (playing that Mexican card! Love it!)

The Lunch

So the thing yesterday was....well let me put it this way for the entire time i went from rage to singing a song in my head (the one below). I can't say what things made me filled with rage other then simply put LIES. Lots of lies piled on top of each other. In a neat slide show. Yippie!

It's all about the song in my head
The one where the audience is all dead

These days they're allowing
Visitation to aid in my rehabilitation
To make these days mean so much more to me
I beg friends and family for forgiveness
And now for the first time together we’ll witness
Together we’ll live this song
I’ve been living incessantly
So come sing with me
Through these poison pills and chemicals
I know that you'll be something beautiful
And brilliant, release will be instant
I'm sorry its the only way

It's all about the song in my head
The one where the audience is all dead

So come over to my house
Catch up over dinner
We're having strychnine and sirloin
Port wine and paint thinner
You'll convulse through the chorus
It's the song of the sinner
As I slowly clear the table
I know that this wont be the last time
It won't be the last time
We wrote this song
And the world will sing it
To me it's everything, to me it's everything, to me it's
On every corpse I see, her face, my love, my heart
I hear her laughter and she’s still alive
It's like she’s still alive
It's in her body I’m holding
As we make love
My heart breaks everytime I dismember the flesh
Hide the evidence and start again because

It's all about the song in my head
The one where the audience is all dead
(with your last breath - only through death, our voices will join together)

Composing Lyrics
Artist(Band):Boysnightout (Boys Night Out)

Entertaining the Sis

While I’m away I am trying to post a long blog to entertain the Sis! I am going to this networking thing for women today and the one girl in the office has been to it twice already and she keeps telling us how boring it is. Great way to physic us out! She was also telling me yesterday that the food is small portions so you leave the thing hungry and wanting more food. LOL it’s funny b/c I doubt I’ll even like the food. I rarely like the food.

Ok let’s talk about shopping. So last night I went out trying to find a suit for this thing today. Well I went to fashion bug 1st. Other then a really cute top I almost bought for Christmas until I decided that this year I need to find a DRESS to wear for Christmas. Also they have these shoes that I keep not buying HOPING they will go on clearance! Then I went to TJ MAX. I fell in LOVE with a pair of low boots! THEY ARE LIKE BUTTER! BUT they were $39.99. I couldn’t spend 40$ on a pair of low boots! Maybe I’ll go back in a week and if they are still there get them. TJ MAX did not have any nice reasonably priced suits. So I moved on over to ROSS. ROSS had the purse that I LOVE! I LOVE IT! But it was $49.99 still!! And I can’t spend that much on a purse even if I LOVE it. They had a really ugly suit for $11.99. It was just too ugly and it was a really long ugly skirt. They also had a $69.99 CK suit. HA no. So then I went to MANDEES. MANDEES had no suits or suit jackets or anything other then lots of SHOES that I could love. Some tops I could love. But I did let myself buy a pair of white wedge sandals for next year for $8.40.

Got to cut this short.... Sorry no long entertaining sissy

MAN I REALLY NEED A KICK!

I need a kick in the butt and that kick needs to hold inspiration and motivation in it! I do nothing, I am nothing!! that is how i feel. I wish i could say that i accomplish a lot! But i don't I'm surprised when i get out of bed on time! THANK GOD i have hardly any hair or i would have a rats nest!

I think that i really really need to start going to the gym at least 3 times a week and MAKE myself go. I think that will help me gain energy....or so i hope!! Snowboarding is just around the corner and we had to make the tough choice to NOT get season passes. So i wont be boarding as much as i would like. However given my current state of not being who knows if i would even use the pass enough!!

I have the blahs and all i want to do is SHOOT the BLAHS AWAY! I FEEL STABBIE about it! Why can't i get motivated? Well OK maybe i know why.....maybe i know why and i don't want to face it. Ugh.

STABBIE!

Look i don't mean to be depressing I'm just in a mood. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Bye for today

November 4th

OK people who post that they are voting but don't say who their voting for BUT say "Go out there and vote for CHANGE because I HOPE for CHANGE." Gosh i wonder who they could be voting for....Just say it! Say who your voting for!! Personally i believe i will be voting for Sponge Bob or Mr. Krabs. It's a toss up. On the one hand you have Sponge Bob who is generally a nice guy but can be firm when he needs to be. But he is easily influenced by others. On the other foot you have Mr.Krabs who knows how to save money. He knows how to make money....but he's not the most fair minded individual. How ever his name is fun. President Eugene Krabs! YEAH!!

Election day is such a big deal to some people and just another day to others. I'm more concerned with the after. What is going to happen? neither candidate seems good neither of them seem like they will bring Change. If we could go back and nominate actual candidates i would like that very much. I would like a do over.

Moving on, last night i got a glow in the dark pillow case! I got skull socks! I got cereal! I had lots of fun with my mom & sister. As always....although mom was not herself...I do hope she is alright. No worries i will call her lots to check up on her....make sure she does not need anything.

I am boring today so I'll end this now. Lets Hope Change is Majestic and Revitalizing 1980 electronics.

"So sing me a verse that is worse then the first...."

An interesting day today....an owner has left...and my co-worker is taking some revenge on an ex.

My weekend was fun. I saw some trick or treaters on Friday night. I walked for a good cause on Saturday morning. And i hung out with two of my favorite people in the world on Sunday!

I am being so informative today! HA! I have so much candy right now.....i had candy for breakfast.....as the oatmeal sat on my desk candy won. So oatmeal maybe tomorrow.

Tonight is SHOPPING!! Hopefully there is lots of fun Halloween clearance to be had! or at least something neat-o! I should see about getting Christmas gifts and i need to make sure i have current address of people so i can send Christmas cards out on time! (cough not like Halloween ones cough!)

I can't believe it's already November! Soon it will be Thanksgiving. Then Christmas....THEN 2009! I'm still waiting for the flying cars! (LOL)

OK this post is going no where fast! NO WHERE!